My past is mine

"My Past Is Mine" by Gerda Rhoads is a science fiction story that was likely written in the mid-20th century. The narrative revolves around a man named Eddie Tomlinson, who has experienced a profound loss of color in his perception of reality, transforming his vibrant life into a grayscale experience. The story explores themes of memory, identity, and the essence of human experience, prompting readers to consider how perceptions shape reality. The plot centers on Eddie’s journey of confronting his loss while traveling on a train, where he encounters a stranger who shares a relatable experience. Both men grapple with their pasts—Eddie's being the disappearance of color from his life, and the stranger's being tied to a term, "povodil," which he can’t fully articulate. As Eddie recounts the distressing details of losing color after a visit to the movies, he attempts to connect with the stranger, hoping to find understanding. The two eventually discover a shared history, complicating their existence as they navigate a world that seemingly lacks the vibrant elements they once knew. The story culminates in questions of identity and lost potential, leaving readers to ponder the relationship between perception and reality.