Egocentric Orbit

"Egocentric Orbit" by John Cory is a science fiction short story that was likely written during the mid-20th century. The story explores the psychological effects of space travel and the profound experiences of an astronaut orbiting Earth. It delves into themes of isolation and the human perspective on the universe, as the protagonist reflects on his solitary journey and the transformative nature of seeing the Earth from space. In this narrative, the astronaut undergoes the routine of space exploration, making checks on his capsule while contemplating his surroundings. As he completes multiple orbits, he experiences a mix of exhilaration and introspection, feeling a crushing sense of individuality and importance at being alone in the cosmos. While he is aware of the two previous astronauts who had returned from their missions altered and withdrawn, he believes that his perceptive abilities heighten his appreciation of the beauty and vastness around him. Ultimately, he chooses to disable the controls meant for his return, succumbing to the allure of the infinite, suggesting a profound psychological change regarding his existence and identity in relation to the universe.